I guess I will still forever love you

If falling in love with you is a choice

I would have chosed never

Because I would rather have my heart broken by somebody

who could reciprocate this

At least admitted that for one second, one day, one week, one month

or once that they had ever mused me romanticly

I would like to hear that I was there to make their days

Because I was taking a good care of someone else and myself

and I was happy

I think that the painful part of being in love is

that sometimes it does not go your own way

The least you can do is to hope

that the heart does not break that bad

so you can carry on and find someone out there 

who will mend the broken parts

But, my mind is rewinding memories of some parts

where you might say "I do"

Maybe when you insisted to pay the dinner bills everytime we go out

Or when you crawled so close to me and we were shy to kiss

Missed call and text messages that followed that said 

you were coming back again

How will I know?